"A Inner Journey of mulishness to touch the highest peak "
When i stand in border of start climb hill , i get depressed and my heart was vibrating with the feeling of take decision was much big from my life span , yet i thought will go in and lets see further .
Endless chain of hills was , for a time being on heights i find beautiful lake , breez and amazing flower fragrances , and resting place too , where i felt may be i get my destination ..... between hills so many valleys river rocks and difficulties i settle myself to go further , unpredictable weather , and hardship of road and my Body had also limited energy .
and ardor was to go top of hill of hill , now i understand how kiddish was all . when after spend years n years in exploration ... i get old , hair get gray , and my body goes weaker . and hills was still up more stand straight and more on heights. skies still on same distance .
Is it same bull run was involved throughout my life !! actually what i did and for what ! it's a query arises . is it any hill top finally , probably not , it's a kind of thirsty deer/ maund running and try to catch water in sand-dunes.
Physically it is may be those highs can available , but actual those highs not even small dot in front of big .
Now i m understand , my motive was not to touch the highest peak (that was madness of mind and running of maund ) , my motive was to understand my limits , and to understand limitless.
During climbing learning was loads that was my nut shell precious stones (mind it still they are stone) . their was small hills , between two hills climbing beautiful springs was . river running so fast on down side , on more highs , there was total silence with no availability of human made Maaya , here i encountered with natural Maaya . it is not artificial pure and natural but keep in mind Maaya is here also ! out of Maaya , Nature itself very great teacher !
Some time my high alert and aware mind get weak in front of the bright shine of Maaya . but sooner i get idea , with my body-running i cant escape from Maaya , my wordily senses only give what they have , nothing beyond they serves , " i need to sit where i am as it is without any pre-belongings , settle just with blank slate .Only can start to climb inner highs and have to dive in inner lows ."
And here i must to share , i found highest highs and lowest lows . i understand my limits in front of Unlimited , and my physical running get stop at one place my maund get settle and that place was center of my heart !! diamond is here ... Omg !
Not sooner but not late too , well in time i get able to find spring inside . i find center of universe in center of my heart !!
The moment i get connected with center .. all illusion get disappears automatic , my vision is get more clear ..99.9% Human races are getting for no motive or short motives or wordily name and fame are just feeling dumbos act , very few running are genuinely for living needful .
Only one act can justified live for betterment for "Earth" with compassion and gratitude . rest of all just Illusions ..