Tuesday, 30 September 2014

Beyond Enlightenment ( self experience- note)

Dear Soul- friend  ,

having experience  about ultimate  fruit of austerity , thinking  share with you , its all beautiful journey of attainment .... start with curious mind ,  passes  through  many guidance , several hints , and magnetic attraction towards nature  ...

age was young , life  was in full bloom , everything was just come as a surprise gift ,  no feel of emptiness was that time gratitude was  towards  god  as  just  thank you  god and happiness  covers this gratitude feel .

the time body have energy , life have beauty ,struggles  have enough  to engage mind .  so spirituality was in seed form . that time  i read  books of Osho , just  with feel , wow , what a mind of The Man , what a  magnetism  he has .  and i was get impressed also with his expressions , they were easy  story Oriented , little funny  with Mulla  stories ...  and just thats all , rest of temple going , ritual prayers were more than enough to me .

In the time  being  i lost my all four grand parents , i got sad .. little  feeling of vairagya  also but soon get disappears . in this journey , I lost my mom , that is Still  vacuum Inside  but that time  at that ignorant stage it was shock , cos i was being a youngest in family among brothers and sisters , she was suppoertive  in all aspect , i was so much emotionally attached with mother .. after her depart i find Geeta  by Osho and Ashtavakr Geeta  by Osho , i read thoroughly these books  give loads of relief ... i want to share my pain and detachment feeling with others .. but no one was there  to listen. gradually all pain get absorbed  in my chest .  my journey get continues .. all comes  as gift in my path  from divine  side but in different way now ..  those give  boost to my thirst .. and my  meditation gradually get more deeper and deeper .... and  Lords doesn't give single opportunity to look back  or go back in life distinct journey.. It is in my experiences ..  my boat was on mid of deep sea , and my soul was flying high towards main center Source . of cource  it is not balanced flight / or dive deep its some times gives sinking feel  or some time high fly without wings  .. both feeling need to balance .. cos in Brahmand  only  magnetism language works  nothing else , many  and uncounted is more correct ; times  this exercise took place  to connect and  reconnect  frequencies  from this center to that center . Gradually  i saw that beautiful balance .. On that stage all  wordily things  get disappears  all realty  comes  literately naked  without covering ... and Maaya  get dissolves .

That is just feeling of total  emptiness ..nothing is to hold  for lust  for anger , for love  for hate , for gossips ( for talks on wisdom or others ) .. any kind  of trial expression either writ or poetry  all  get go blur , only One diamond of truth  sparkling bright .... ONLY  SILENCE (vyom) get left in surrounding .

perhaps its a long list  of dedication  in path of  Spirituality  but in live Gurus Here i  had  received as my first  Call  from vyom and from  all ten directions than  created  circumstances by nature or destiny   and  next call  vibration received from  Guru  Osho (frequential ) .second my  feelings goes to Kunal ji now he is famous as  Anant shree . who says  many wisdom words  alike " Your personal story is nothing except a dream within a dream...awakening of real you wipes away all personal stories...- Anant Sri "  and after that Shree  Shree Ravishankar  ji , bit impressed  with  their playfulness , easiness with full wisdom   and  i did  basic  course of art of living   just for  seeing ... my all connections  with Spiritual persons  was  frequential , just i connect with them  through mind to mind . physically  i never feel  desire  to connect Spiritually to Source  Via Spirituals  and go in ashrams  and pre directed / guided  Holy Places ..Only feeling was ,' whatever  comes as moments in my next steps  are welcome  and these are  for my para experiences . all are accepted  and my total surrender was  and still  continues in floating above Maha-Sagar .

In this journey  many soul gives  their contribution  i mus have pay gratitude to them , one is Osho Aabha ji  and other is Bhagwatidas Nandlal (bhayi ji ) and Bodhi krishna ji  these are direct who serve me those kind of frequencies  either through web or through books whatever i required that particular time , other than my parents , my brothers and sisters , my husband and kids  and  many more  all total recalllings (Puarnahuti) to those all energies whoever comes and contribute own way . many connections ..

"I have  no single criticism  of these or any  Soul , cos i find they learn   and give back loads  within human body  and limitations , Including self fights of same  natural production of goods and bads of Internal and external  panchtatv-senses . despite of they try to give  teachings above of all  " just paying respect and  gratitude  for all  to all my Internal frequential Gurus ."

In root I am big fan of Budhha (sidhartha)  and Krishna the  famous as Lord ,  all are my best friends and always  gives me best as best friends ! paying humble respects !

Sending my big pranam to Souls and to Divinity 

Tao saying is :- Tao Te Ching
" The  sage willingly shares possessions
and Offers in service wherever possible.
The wise sage gives to others unconditionally
because ; there is no end to his or her wealth."

It was very clear to me from very beginning of thirst , in the path of  Lord  i will pay only  flowers of my heart to  Super Frequencies ..no wordily money  will capture that feel in cost of wordily money . so i did and God gives me  tremendous support . from reading  to meditation ... here i am deeply gratitude  to lord to choose  me . My money was and is Only  Bhava  in the purchase of Bhava 

So that same is my servings and also  by saying " be wise and be safe " and " Appo  dippo aappo bhavah " i think  these two are beautiful words in entire  spiritual growth process .

I find  Spiritual  Journey is   very self , no one  can give  and  certificate for , its a self enhansment starts with self  recognition , self respect , and self love .

as i get these above qualities  rest of my journey get smooth , and  one point is come  when  i  get feel ,no need  further digging , i find what i want !  that was my peak ...that  was my enlightenment but no need any authentication  or certification  So  i didn't joined yet  any Organisation .  

i feel beyond enlightenment is only beyondness. Enlightenment is the last host. Beyond it, all boundaries disappear, all experiences disappear. Experience comes to its utmost in enlightenment; it is the very peak of all that is beautiful, of all that is immortal, of all that is blissful -- but it is an experience. Beyond enlightenment there is no experience at all, because the experiencer has disappeared.
Enlightenment is not only the peak of experience, it is also the finest definition of your being. Beyond it, there is only nothingness; you will not come again to a point which has to be transcended.
Experience, the experiencer, enlightenment -- all have been left behind. You are part of the tremendous nothingness that is infinite. This is the nothingness out of which the whole existence comes, the womb; and this is the nothingness in which all the existence disappears.

" Beyond enlightenment you enter into nothingness.
 Experience disappears, experiencer disappears.
Just pure nothingness remains, utter silence. " 
Just as you enter beyond enlightenment into nothingness, there must be a possibility of coming out of nothingness back into form, back into existence -- renewed, refreshed, luminous -- on a totally different plane. Because nothing is destroyed, things can only go into a dormant state; things can go only into deep sleep. Then in the morning they wake up again. This is how the existence goes on.
this will go on forever and forever. There has never been any beginning, and there will be no end.
After enlightenment, you have to disappear. The world is left behind, the body is left behind, the mind is left behind; just your consciousness, as individuality, is still there.
To go beyond enlightenment is to go beyond individuality and to become universal. This way, each individual will go on moving into nothingness. And one day, the whole existence moves into nothingness and a great peace, a great night, a deep, dark womb, a great awaiting for the dawn.... And it has been happening always, and each time you are always born on a higher level of consciousness.
Enlightenment is the goal of human beings. But those who are enlightened cannot remain static; they will have to move, they will have to change. And now they have only one thing to lose -- themselves.
They have enjoyed everything. They have enjoyed the purity of individuality; now they have to enjoy the disappearing of individuality. They have seen the beauty of individuality; now they have to see the disappearance and its beauty, and the silence that follows, that abysmal serenity that follows. Osho
Beyond Enlightenment
Chapter #1
Chapter title: Beyond Enlightenment is only beyondness
3 October 1986 pm

And its true  feel , nothing is left to learn  Shastra ,  God Statues ,   Rituals ,  wordily Prayers , Body pains , emotional pains ,  relations ,  lust , anger , greed ,  internal poisons ,  all becomes sudden Neutral .. all  scene  convert into just drama .. but not in artificiality .. Now  Soul  become more compassionate , more in gratitude , more responsible , more dedicated ..  just with in Body temple .
Indeed  Body  becomes  best temple  in world  and  Lord resides within Heart  alike burning  cool blue flame . which is direct  take burning energy  from main Source .

In that  stage in meditation  it is possible  to move in  yugas  backward   and forward , to move in Sages  minds  , not  in their pen or ink  or book where they embossed  words ...  what they actually want to say beyond words they  used  to express . Sages  always  hint  to go beyond , do not stuck on words .. actual  is  more wide  more deeper . they use the words for , Bhavateet , Kalpnateet , Shabdateet , and enlightenment is the gate  where  consciousness  get enter this Beyond  word , and really   there is no word  made in any language  to express that  vastness , that  vastness only can do feel in Utter Silent-Stage  when your  center get attached  with  main center.

only than gravitational  force attract  to you and pull to you frequentially  . and after that your effort get stopped  and gravitational  attraction  starts work forever. and that is  super light  stage , those poison  looks powerful and harmful they can not even touch you . they  get all of sudden  powerless . and you are  above of all .

but  All Empty  Hands , you have nothing to gain or nothing to lose .

Just  amazing to read these lines  of Osho :- " Science has something parallel; there is bound to be something parallel. The spiritual experience is of the interior world, and science is the exploration of the exterior. But both are wings of the same existence -- the inwardness and the outwardness -- they always have similar points.
Scientists have come to a strange conclusion in this century, that a few stars suddenly disappear... and stars are not small things; they are not so small as they look to you. They look small because they are so far away, millions of light years away, but they are huge.
Our sun is a star, but of a mediocre size, medium size. In comparison to the earth it is vast, but in comparison to other stars it is a small, medium-sized star. There are stars which are a thousand times bigger than the sun.
And in this century, for the first time we had the instruments of observation and we were very much puzzled: suddenly a star disappears, not even leaving a trace behind of where it has gone. Such a huge phenomenon, and not even footprints -- in what direction has it gone? It has just moved simply into nothingness. This was happening continually.
It took almost twenty years to figure out this new phenomenon: that in existence there are black holes. You cannot see them, but they have tremendous gravitation. Even the biggest star, if it comes within their radius of magnetism, will be pulled in. And once it is pulled into a black hole, it disappears. It is the ultimate death. We can only see the effect; we cannot see the black hole, we only see that one star is disappearing.
After the black hole was almost an established theory, scientists started thinking that there must be something like a white hole -- there has to be. If it is possible that in a certain gravitation, magnetic force, a big star simply disappears out of existence.... We have been aware that every day stars are born. From where are they coming? -- nobody has asked it before.
In fact, birth we always take for granted; nobody asks from where the babies are coming.
Death we never accept, because we are so much afraid of it.
There is not a single philosophy in the whole history of man which thinks about where the babies come from, but there are philosophies and philosophies thinking about what is dead, where people go on disappearing to, what happens after death.
In my whole life I have come across millions of people, and not a single person has asked what happens before birth -- and thousands have asked what happens after death. I have always been thinking, why is birth taken without any question? Why is death not taken in the same way?
We were aware for centuries, almost three centuries, that stars are being born every day -- big stars, huge stars -- and nobody raised the question, "From where are these stars coming?" But when we came to know about the black holes and we saw the stars disappearing, then the second question became almost an absolute necessity. If black holes can take stars into nothingness, then there must be something like white holes where things... stars come out of nothingness.
I am reminded.... Mulla Nasruddin had applied for a post on a ship. He was interviewed. The captain and the high officials of the ship were sitting in a room. Mulla entered. The captain asked, "If the seas are in a turmoil, winds are strong, waves are huge and mountainous, what are you going to do to save the ship? It is tossed from here to there...."
Mulla Nasruddin said, "It is not much of a problem: I will just drop a huge anchor to keep the ship stable against the winds, against the waves. It is not much of a problem."
The captain again said, "Suppose another mountainous wave comes and the ship is going to be drowned; what are you going to do?"
He said, "Nothing -- another huge anchor."
The captain looked at him and asked a third time, "Suppose it is a great typhoon and it is impossible to save the ship. What are you going to do?"
He said, "Nothing, the same -- a huge anchor."
The captain said, "From where are you getting these huge anchors?"
He said, "From the same place. From where are you getting these great, mountainous waves, strong winds? -- from the same place. You go on getting them, I will go on getting bigger and bigger anchors."
If there are holes in existence where things simply disappear into non-existence, then there must be holes from where things appear from nothingness -- and just a little imagination is needed. Scientists have not worked on it yet.
My suggestion is that a black hole is like a door: from one side it is a black door, a black hole -- things go into it and disappear into nothingness. And from the other side of the tunnel -- it is the same door, just from the other side -- it is a white hole; things are born again, renewed. It is the same womb.
Beyond Enlightenment
Chapter #1
Chapter title: Beyond Enlightenment is only beyondness
3 October 1986 pm

Your' ............

Om Om Om 

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