Dear Soul- friend ,
having experience about ultimate fruit of austerity , thinking share with you , its all beautiful journey of attainment .... start with curious mind , passes through many guidance , several hints , and magnetic attraction towards nature ...
age was young , life was in full bloom , everything was just come as a surprise gift , no feel of emptiness was that time gratitude was towards god as just thank you god and happiness covers this gratitude feel .
the time body have energy , life have beauty ,struggles have enough to engage mind . so spirituality was in seed form . that time i read books of Osho , just with feel , wow , what a mind of The Man , what a magnetism he has . and i was get impressed also with his expressions , they were easy story Oriented , little funny with Mulla stories ... and just thats all , rest of temple going , ritual prayers were more than enough to me .
In the time being i lost my all four grand parents , i got sad .. little feeling of vairagya also but soon get disappears . in this journey , I lost my mom , that is Still vacuum Inside but that time at that ignorant stage it was shock , cos i was being a youngest in family among brothers and sisters , she was suppoertive in all aspect , i was so much emotionally attached with mother .. after her depart i find Geeta by Osho and Ashtavakr Geeta by Osho , i read thoroughly these books give loads of relief ... i want to share my pain and detachment feeling with others .. but no one was there to listen. gradually all pain get absorbed in my chest . my journey get continues .. all comes as gift in my path from divine side but in different way now .. those give boost to my thirst .. and my meditation gradually get more deeper and deeper .... and Lords doesn't give single opportunity to look back or go back in life distinct journey.. It is in my experiences .. my boat was on mid of deep sea , and my soul was flying high towards main center Source . of cource it is not balanced flight / or dive deep its some times gives sinking feel or some time high fly without wings .. both feeling need to balance .. cos in Brahmand only magnetism language works nothing else , many and uncounted is more correct ; times this exercise took place to connect and reconnect frequencies from this center to that center . Gradually i saw that beautiful balance .. On that stage all wordily things get disappears all realty comes literately naked without covering ... and Maaya get dissolves .
That is just feeling of total emptiness ..nothing is to hold for lust for anger , for love for hate , for gossips ( for talks on wisdom or others ) .. any kind of trial expression either writ or poetry all get go blur , only One diamond of truth sparkling bright .... ONLY SILENCE (vyom) get left in surrounding .
perhaps its a long list of dedication in path of Spirituality but in live Gurus Here i had received as my first Call from vyom and from all ten directions than created circumstances by nature or destiny and next call vibration received from Guru Osho (frequential ) .second my feelings goes to Kunal ji now he is famous as Anant shree . who says many wisdom words alike " Your personal story is nothing except a dream within a dream...awakening of real you wipes away all personal stories...- Anant Sri " and after that Shree Shree Ravishankar ji , bit impressed with their playfulness , easiness with full wisdom and i did basic course of art of living just for seeing ... my all connections with Spiritual persons was frequential , just i connect with them through mind to mind . physically i never feel desire to connect Spiritually to Source Via Spirituals and go in ashrams and pre directed / guided Holy Places ..Only feeling was ,' whatever comes as moments in my next steps are welcome and these are for my para experiences . all are accepted and my total surrender was and still continues in floating above Maha-Sagar .
In this journey many soul gives their contribution i mus have pay gratitude to them , one is Osho Aabha ji and other is Bhagwatidas Nandlal (bhayi ji ) and Bodhi krishna ji these are direct who serve me those kind of frequencies either through web or through books whatever i required that particular time , other than my parents , my brothers and sisters , my husband and kids and many more all total recalllings (Puarnahuti) to those all energies whoever comes and contribute own way . many connections ..
"I have no single criticism of these or any Soul , cos i find they learn and give back loads within human body and limitations , Including self fights of same natural production of goods and bads of Internal and external panchtatv-senses . despite of they try to give teachings above of all " just paying respect and gratitude for all to all my Internal frequential Gurus ."
In root I am big fan of Budhha (sidhartha) and Krishna the famous as Lord , all are my best friends and always gives me best as best friends ! paying humble respects !
Sending my big pranam to Souls and to Divinity
Tao saying is :- Tao Te Ching
" The sage willingly shares possessions
and Offers in service wherever possible.
and Offers in service wherever possible.
The wise sage gives to others unconditionally
because ; there is no end to his or her wealth."
because ; there is no end to his or her wealth."
It was very clear to me from very beginning of thirst , in the path of Lord i will pay only flowers of my heart to Super Frequencies ..no wordily money will capture that feel in cost of wordily money . so i did and God gives me tremendous support . from reading to meditation ... here i am deeply gratitude to lord to choose me . My money was and is Only Bhava in the purchase of Bhava
So that same is my servings and also by saying " be wise and be safe " and " Appo dippo aappo bhavah " i think these two are beautiful words in entire spiritual growth process .
I find Spiritual Journey is very self , no one can give and certificate for , its a self enhansment starts with self recognition , self respect , and self love .
as i get these above qualities rest of my journey get smooth , and one point is come when i get feel ,no need further digging , i find what i want ! that was my peak ...that was my enlightenment but no need any authentication or certification So i didn't joined yet any Organisation .
i feel beyond enlightenment is only beyondness. Enlightenment is the last host. Beyond it, all boundaries disappear, all experiences disappear. Experience comes to its utmost in enlightenment; it is the very peak of all that is beautiful, of all that is immortal, of all that is blissful -- but it is an experience. Beyond enlightenment there is no experience at all, because the experiencer has disappeared.
Enlightenment is not only the peak of experience, it is also the finest definition of your being. Beyond it, there is only nothingness; you will not come again to a point which has to be transcended.
Experience, the experiencer, enlightenment -- all have been left behind. You are part of the tremendous nothingness that is infinite. This is the nothingness out of which the whole existence comes, the womb; and this is the nothingness in which all the existence disappears.
" Beyond enlightenment you enter into nothingness.
Experience disappears, experiencer disappears.Just pure nothingness remains, utter silence. "
Just as you enter beyond enlightenment into nothingness, there must be a possibility of coming out of nothingness back into form, back into existence -- renewed, refreshed, luminous -- on a totally different plane. Because nothing is destroyed, things can only go into a dormant state; things can go only into deep sleep. Then in the morning they wake up again. This is how the existence goes on.Experience disappears, experiencer disappears.Just pure nothingness remains, utter silence. "
this will go on forever and forever. There has never been any beginning, and there will be no end.
After enlightenment, you have to disappear. The world is left behind, the body is left behind, the mind is left behind; just your consciousness, as individuality, is still there.
To go beyond enlightenment is to go beyond individuality and to become universal. This way, each individual will go on moving into nothingness. And one day, the whole existence moves into nothingness and a great peace, a great night, a deep, dark womb, a great awaiting for the dawn.... And it has been happening always, and each time you are always born on a higher level of consciousness.
After enlightenment, you have to disappear. The world is left behind, the body is left behind, the mind is left behind; just your consciousness, as individuality, is still there.
To go beyond enlightenment is to go beyond individuality and to become universal. This way, each individual will go on moving into nothingness. And one day, the whole existence moves into nothingness and a great peace, a great night, a deep, dark womb, a great awaiting for the dawn.... And it has been happening always, and each time you are always born on a higher level of consciousness.
Enlightenment is the goal of human beings. But those who are enlightened cannot remain static; they will have to move, they will have to change. And now they have only one thing to lose -- themselves.
They have enjoyed everything. They have enjoyed the purity of individuality; now they have to enjoy the disappearing of individuality. They have seen the beauty of individuality; now they have to see the disappearance and its beauty, and the silence that follows, that abysmal serenity that follows. Osho
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Chapter title: Beyond Enlightenment is only beyondness
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And its true feel , nothing is left to learn Shastra , God Statues , Rituals , wordily Prayers , Body pains , emotional pains , relations , lust , anger , greed , internal poisons , all becomes sudden Neutral .. all scene convert into just drama .. but not in artificiality .. Now Soul become more compassionate , more in gratitude , more responsible , more dedicated .. just with in Body temple .
Indeed Body becomes best temple in world and Lord resides within Heart alike burning cool blue flame . which is direct take burning energy from main Source .
In that stage in meditation it is possible to move in yugas backward and forward , to move in Sages minds , not in their pen or ink or book where they embossed words ... what they actually want to say beyond words they used to express . Sages always hint to go beyond , do not stuck on words .. actual is more wide more deeper . they use the words for , Bhavateet , Kalpnateet , Shabdateet , and enlightenment is the gate where consciousness get enter this Beyond word , and really there is no word made in any language to express that vastness , that vastness only can do feel in Utter Silent-Stage when your center get attached with main center.
only than gravitational force attract to you and pull to you frequentially . and after that your effort get stopped and gravitational attraction starts work forever. and that is super light stage , those poison looks powerful and harmful they can not even touch you . they get all of sudden powerless . and you are above of all .
but All Empty Hands , you have nothing to gain or nothing to lose .
Scientists have come to a strange conclusion in this century, that a few stars suddenly disappear... and stars are not small things; they are not so small as they look to you. They look small because they are so far away, millions of light years away, but they are huge.
Our sun is a star, but of a mediocre size, medium size. In comparison to the earth it is vast, but in comparison to other stars it is a small, medium-sized star. There are stars which are a thousand times bigger than the sun.
And in this century, for the first time we had the instruments of observation and we were very much puzzled: suddenly a star disappears, not even leaving a trace behind of where it has gone. Such a huge phenomenon, and not even footprints -- in what direction has it gone? It has just moved simply into nothingness. This was happening continually.
It took almost twenty years to figure out this new phenomenon: that in existence there are black holes. You cannot see them, but they have tremendous gravitation. Even the biggest star, if it comes within their radius of magnetism, will be pulled in. And once it is pulled into a black hole, it disappears. It is the ultimate death. We can only see the effect; we cannot see the black hole, we only see that one star is disappearing.
After the black hole was almost an established theory, scientists started thinking that there must be something like a white hole -- there has to be. If it is possible that in a certain gravitation, magnetic force, a big star simply disappears out of existence.... We have been aware that every day stars are born. From where are they coming? -- nobody has asked it before.
In fact, birth we always take for granted; nobody asks from where the babies are coming.
Death we never accept, because we are so much afraid of it.
There is not a single philosophy in the whole history of man which thinks about where the babies come from, but there are philosophies and philosophies thinking about what is dead, where people go on disappearing to, what happens after death.
In my whole life I have come across millions of people, and not a single person has asked what happens before birth -- and thousands have asked what happens after death. I have always been thinking, why is birth taken without any question? Why is death not taken in the same way?
There is not a single philosophy in the whole history of man which thinks about where the babies come from, but there are philosophies and philosophies thinking about what is dead, where people go on disappearing to, what happens after death.
In my whole life I have come across millions of people, and not a single person has asked what happens before birth -- and thousands have asked what happens after death. I have always been thinking, why is birth taken without any question? Why is death not taken in the same way?
We were aware for centuries, almost three centuries, that stars are being born every day -- big stars, huge stars -- and nobody raised the question, "From where are these stars coming?" But when we came to know about the black holes and we saw the stars disappearing, then the second question became almost an absolute necessity. If black holes can take stars into nothingness, then there must be something like white holes where things... stars come out of nothingness.
I am reminded.... Mulla Nasruddin had applied for a post on a ship. He was interviewed. The captain and the high officials of the ship were sitting in a room. Mulla entered. The captain asked, "If the seas are in a turmoil, winds are strong, waves are huge and mountainous, what are you going to do to save the ship? It is tossed from here to there...."
Mulla Nasruddin said, "It is not much of a problem: I will just drop a huge anchor to keep the ship stable against the winds, against the waves. It is not much of a problem."
The captain again said, "Suppose another mountainous wave comes and the ship is going to be drowned; what are you going to do?"
He said, "Nothing -- another huge anchor."
The captain looked at him and asked a third time, "Suppose it is a great typhoon and it is impossible to save the ship. What are you going to do?"
He said, "Nothing, the same -- a huge anchor."
The captain said, "From where are you getting these huge anchors?"
He said, "From the same place. From where are you getting these great, mountainous waves, strong winds? -- from the same place. You go on getting them, I will go on getting bigger and bigger anchors."
I am reminded.... Mulla Nasruddin had applied for a post on a ship. He was interviewed. The captain and the high officials of the ship were sitting in a room. Mulla entered. The captain asked, "If the seas are in a turmoil, winds are strong, waves are huge and mountainous, what are you going to do to save the ship? It is tossed from here to there...."
Mulla Nasruddin said, "It is not much of a problem: I will just drop a huge anchor to keep the ship stable against the winds, against the waves. It is not much of a problem."
The captain again said, "Suppose another mountainous wave comes and the ship is going to be drowned; what are you going to do?"
He said, "Nothing -- another huge anchor."
The captain looked at him and asked a third time, "Suppose it is a great typhoon and it is impossible to save the ship. What are you going to do?"
He said, "Nothing, the same -- a huge anchor."
The captain said, "From where are you getting these huge anchors?"
He said, "From the same place. From where are you getting these great, mountainous waves, strong winds? -- from the same place. You go on getting them, I will go on getting bigger and bigger anchors."
If there are holes in existence where things simply disappear into non-existence, then there must be holes from where things appear from nothingness -- and just a little imagination is needed. Scientists have not worked on it yet.
My suggestion is that a black hole is like a door: from one side it is a black door, a black hole -- things go into it and disappear into nothingness. And from the other side of the tunnel -- it is the same door, just from the other side -- it is a white hole; things are born again, renewed. It is the same womb.
Beyond EnlightenmentMy suggestion is that a black hole is like a door: from one side it is a black door, a black hole -- things go into it and disappear into nothingness. And from the other side of the tunnel -- it is the same door, just from the other side -- it is a white hole; things are born again, renewed. It is the same womb.
Chapter #1
Chapter title: Beyond Enlightenment is only beyondness
3 October 1986 pm
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Soul-friend
Om Om Om
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